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Oh my g-d. I've done it again. I have started perusing the online forums to try and meet someone.

SIGH.

Kill me now. It NEVER works out for me, but for some SAD reason, I always resort to it. OkCupid, PlentyOfFish and Craigslist.

My friends even ridicule me for it.

But what it just amounts to is that I am lonely. Terribly lonely. And scared of always being so.

Although maybe being alone would be better than meeting these freaks.

Bedside Manner

So, being the fool that I am, I decided to go out with another random creep. Although, after talking on the phone with him for over an hour... He seemed ok, and he laughed at my stupid jokes, so I figured it may be ok. Plus he was a doctor.

Yes, I admit, I am *THAT* shallow.

He wanted us to go to a spa for a first date. Sort of strange, yet a bit tempting, I declined... Then he suggested dinner.

He showed up AN HOUR late. I don't buy that and in fact, it is one of the things that drives me the craziest.

Plus he was driving a Pontiac G6. What kind of doctor drives a Pontiac?!

Yes, I confirm, I am *THAT* shallow.

Then his big dinner plan involved driving around aimlessly and when he would drive over a speed bump, he'd make a weird "woohoo" noise under his breath.

We eventually went to Mythos on Parc where they proceeded to sit us right beside the ONE speaker for their music and therefore I could not hear a DAMN thing. (Which, as it turns out, may not have been a bad thing.)

After a sub par sort of dinner where people from the table next to us and behind me kept pushing back their chairs hard into mine while on the way to do coke in the bathroom, I asked him to drive me home.

He then asked me if he could massage me and started naming body parts, requesting my permission for each one.

Uh... No, thanks! I got out of the car and walked home...

Yes, I am DEFINITELY that shallow.

Southern Boys

So I have met the man I want to get to know. The one who kind of makes me weak in the knees and treats me well. My parents like him, my friends love him. The only problem is, we're having a little bit of trouble figuring out when we need space and we're both trying not to upset the other. It can make for tension and unhappiness, that is for sure... I'm trying to breathe because I like him so, so, so much!

Back in the Saddle Again

Well, I've gone on a couple of dates in the past few weeks and have somewhat realized that I am not comfortable with the entire prospect. My self-confidence definitely took a beating since my accident and I'm working harder at feeling good about myself, but it's not easy.

It doesn't help when you're excited about meeting someone and they turn into a creepy gropey nasty person. Placing my hand on their crotch - "See what you do to me?" ON A FIRST DATE.

Needless to say, I didn't call him back, email him or answer when he called me. (Although I did consider it. Ugh, I need to get my confidence back STAT!)

Who Are You?!

Text messages from a random...


- Salut xx
- ScoTTT. Bonne journee xxx
- Scottt qui voulait te donner un lift hier soir!
- Tu avais trop bu, je suis le seul qui te crusait pas, l'ami a steve.
- Ok je catches maintenant j'ai 2sabrina sans mon iphone dsl
- On a vu un renard ensemble...
- Did you sell the cross i sold you to montrealdoms.com?
- That's the funniest thing i've ever witnessed! Thanks so much for this fortunate turn of events! Hahaha xx
- Forget it, you came to my recording studio
- Call me
- Your in my phonebook so we must have met in the past...
- Sabrina?
- Whats your "field" of work?
- Ok I know who you are now. Forgive the intrusion i shan't bother you ever again.
- No one you know. I'm sorry to have bothered you. I've removed you from my phonebook.
- Hope you fixed your iphone...
- May i call you? Im confused now
- Im a studio recording engineer, i am drug free, i teach safe adult roleplaying, electroplay, i am a mac expert, anything ring a bell?
- Ray Malone
- ScoTTT
- Yes! I guess i value my privacy as much as you do. Again i'm very sorry to have bothered you.
- Just wish i knew how you got into my phone, i hate unsolved mysteries!

Sing Sing

So the other night I went on a date to meet a Circus performer guy I'd met online. He seemed cool and we knew people in common and had spoken on the phone a bunch of times. He always came to my local bar and tried to entice me out with promises of free booze, so finally I said yes. (Incidentally, I had been to that bar on Wednesday with a friend and he had stared at me the whole time, but I ignored him.)

So I decided that bar was too busy and loud, and we ended up at Sing Sing. He called it "too gay" and said it smelt like fish. So then my fabulous friend, Ben Gay walked in. We went to sit with him.......annnnnnnddddddddd DATE OVER!

He tried to pick up another girl at the bar while I was sitting with him. I'm happy though, I met the way cool owner, some crazy guy named Chuck and a bunch of other people.

I have declared it my new hang out.

Gay Zombie

Or maybe in the closet....

XXXX: well, I also love to dance in gay clubs, like Parking on Thursdays. It's like my philosophy about travel; if I see something awesome (lifestyle-wise), I am not afraid to latch onto it and make it mine.
but you've hit on something... I am a little non-dude like. Most of my friends are women, 'cause I relate well to "feminine" topics, like fashion and decorating and talking about feelings
don't tell anyone, but I don't like hockey or cars
they might take away my canadian citizenship if anyone finds out
hah, this is fun. I'm trying to teach myself advanced AJAX code, and trying to get to know you at the same time.
although I feel like I'm doing a lot of talking about me, but I swear I'm not self centered. In fact, I'm a great listener in person